Autumn leaves me

I have been having such a good run of days where everything feels perfect and like it’s all clicking along just the way it should be. You know the feeling – you find yourself driving back from somewhere late in the afternoon, the traffic is light and moving steadily, there are big puffy black clouds over the Dandenongs looking dramatic, the sun is shining on the autumn trees just so and there’s a good piece of music on the radio. The kids are chatting happily rather than grizzling or fighting. No one is sick, no one is sad and you realise that everything feels pretty good. Everything feels exciting, the possibilities seem endless and there is a gentle sense of an overriding rhythm. On those days I can feel such inspired energy running through me. I am such a bloody pessimist though, that these moments are always bittersweet, tainted with that “oh, it’s too good to last! I wish I could just hold on to this forever!”.

And of course (because I just knew it!) today isn’t one of the good ones. But that’s part of the rhythm too I guess.

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11 Responses

  1. Lisa says:

    I live on the opposite side of the planet in Florida (USA), so we are headed into summer. But, I understand that feeling….things are good, they feel balanced and synchronized. Those moments are rare, like the endpoint swing of a pendulum. It is easy to focus on the full swing of our pendulums…all that momentum. It is grace to notice on such a completely spiritual, visceral and emotional level…the stillness. There IS great beauty in that stillpoint, no matter how brief.

  2. michelle says:

    Ah, but the pendulum always swings back to the middle – high, low (opposite), middle. Thank goodness the highs are so great we forget the lows, and the lows are so low they muddle into the background.Hope you’re doing Ok, new leaves are coming. 🙂

  3. theresa says:

    oh, the ole ebb and flow of life! I know it all too well. Fortunately for me, I feel up right now; sorry you are on the downside.I have just the thing to cheer you up–give me just a little bit more time…almost there.;-)

  4. fiona says:

    i know how you feel.i just try and enjoy the up ride for however long it lasts!By the way those black dramatic Dandenongs are bloody frezzing!

  5. Nix says:

    Firstly, I love this design. Autumn is my favorite time of year. But, the entirety of autumn encompasses this very feeling you’re talking about. Where everything suddenly falls (no pun intended) into place and you just feel right finally. After months of forcing ad trying. But, you also know that winter is coming, and here in the part of the States that I live in… it becomes bitter cold and now (thanks to global warming) doesn’t snow that much. So it’s mid-November until sometimes the end of April of cold cold weather, grey skies, and no green.I’m rambling though… you know what I mean, right?

  6. Kelly says:

    I am exactly the same way… I always figure I just jinxed myself when I have that moment of thinking “wow, my life is really good right now”, and I agree Fiona just enjoy it while it lasts it will come again even if it goes away for a bit.

  7. leslie says:

    oh man! I know exactly what you mean! Everything seems so wonderful and perfect that you can’t help but think “something’s wrong! Something HORRIBLE is going to happen soon!”

  8. Cherry says:

    Hope today’s a better one. We all know.Thanks for the Carl Larsson!

  9. emma says:

    My heart gave a twitter of recognition when I read this post. Some days are just GOLDEN aren’t they.My gorgeous 11 year old son went away to Grade Six camp last week and came back as a troubled teen.I was devastated to find that instead of the regular cuddles on the couch, he “hated living here” hates me, can’t believe I would have the gall to ask him to eat dinner, put pj’s on, or offer him stewed apples for dessert.I cried.In my bedroom.In fact I could do it again right now.I’m sure it’ll turn around..and I can hardly wait!

  10. tiel says:

    i have this theory that when ever I am or we (family) are having a bad day, there must be someone out there having a super day. And the opposite of course. When I am having that perfect day, some poor soul is suffering. It is all about balance I think. here’s to more perfect days in both our households and not so perfect in people’s we don’t know.

  11. sallykate says:

    You have such a graceful writing style. It brought a smile to my face to read your elegant and honest post. Treat yourself with kindness-being a mom is a really hard job–find a happy book, create a “goodie” drawer with all your favorite things, escape to a girlie movie, take a hot bath with a magazine and a cup of tea. Plant, sew, cook..whatever takes you to that place of comfort again. Peace.

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