I have to be quick-ish, Small will
be here soon for our weekly night of good food and TV. Big-P
is cooking up Bulgarian Pepper Casserole (another Moosewood
favourite) which I'm sure will be amazing but it's
a little worrying as Special-K doesn't like peppers -
somehow Big-P thinks he is going to win her over to it with
the mere fact that he's cooked it so it must be delicious.
Today I had a crisis of confidence
(read: couldn't stop crying) and have decided to take
two days off work. Things have been a little tense since our
planning meetings last week. We decided that we will give
the company another six months and if things don't look
like picking up we will consider calling it a day and look
for something else to do. As you can imagine - this is one
of my worries. What else would I do? I'm totally
sure I could get another job doing web design - but the question
is do I want to? I really like doing my own projects but
I find working for clients absolutely agonising. I hate hate
hate them. I guess I could work for a company that's
doing their own web thing and not an outsource company, but
these opportunities are a little limited in Melbourne, perhaps
I could talk up my talents to my friend at lonely planet online.
Perhaps we'll seriously consider the States.
Stress number two is that as part
of the planning I have become head of a division that has
to reach a huge and massive target in 18 months, (I have to
be able to know if this is possible in 6) and it's sent
me into a spin. It's the only division that didn't
exist before last week so I'm starting from scratch.
It just may kill me, and I've taken to looking longingly
at resort/island holiday location brochures. Last time I started
doing this (I was fixating on a trip to Byron Bay - which
I finally did manage to get to) I was maxing out from working
excruciating hours art directing a magazine which was a miserable
time, but good for my cv.
Stress number three is that, to help
the company survive on no money while there is such a mammoth
amount of work to do, we've decided to take a small fixed
salary for the six months. And I mean small. My planned trip
to the UK with Sez and Special-K in April is almost a complete
impossibility, which is very sad as I'll have to miss
one of my dearest and sweetest friend's wedding. Ahhh
well. These are the sacrifices of being your own boss. Crappy.
Sooo --- blah blah blah! Other than
that. We've decided to take tomorrow off as a "mental
health day" and go and do something nice. Maybe a movie, maybe
the zoo (but I can't stand the sad, pacing big cats in
tiny cages) maybe junk-shop visits.
I am dying for my Looper CD to arrive
but Chaos music are being slow as hell. So tell me - what
are the benefits of buying CDs online? Pffff.
Tomorrow I'll be more happy
- promise.
Xxx
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